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Just imagine… What if all the time, energy, and heart we pour into self-doubt was redirected into fierce, unwavering self-belief ? What if the mental tug-of-war where we talk ourselves in and then straight back out stopped today? We so often hold ourselves back, waiting… Waiting for permission. Waiting for someone else to see us, validate us, choose us. Waiting for a sign that says, “Yes, you’re ready. Yes, you’re enough.” But here's the truth: You are the sign. You are the permission. You are the spark you’ve been waiting for. You don’t need outside approval to rise. You don’t need applause to begin. You need only one thing: your own belief . Let your voice be the loudest cheer in the room. Let your heart be the safe place you fall into. Let your soul be your guide, your fire, your foundation. Be the one who believes in you the most. The one who never gives up. The one who says, “I’ve got you, no matter what.” Because when you become your own unwavering support, when you choose to back yourself fully , there is nothing you cannot create, become, or overcome. Today, stand in your power. Root into your truth. Choose to believe in yourself louder, deeper, and more beautifully than ever before. Be your own biggest cheerleader. Celebrate your small wins, honour your resilience, and speak to yourself with love and kindness. Let your inner voice be the one that lifts you higher, not holds you back. When doubts whisper, let your self-belief roar louder. When fear creeps in, meet it with fierce compassion and the unshakable knowing that you are capable of rising, again and again. You are not here to play small. You are here to shine, to expand, to live boldly in your purpose. So root into your magic, trust your journey, and keep showing up for yourself, because the world needs what only you can bring. That’s where the magic begins. With so much love from my heart to yours, Deb x

For as long as I can remember, the dream of creating an oracle deck lived in my heart. It was a vision that began in my teenage years - a calling that stayed and eventually, I couldn’t ignore. I wanted to create something that would inspire, empower, and connect people with their inner light, just how I felt every time I sat and immersed myself in the joy of oracle cards. Little did I know back then that this dream would not only come to life but grow into something more beautiful than I ever imagined. When my first ever oracle deck finally became a reality, my heart was FULL. The journey to its completion spanned four years, much deep work, time, dedication and commitment involved and unwavering trust. Each step brought great teachings in patience, faith and surrender to the divine unfolding, knowing that was meant to be would come to fruition in perfect timing, not my timing! Yet the true magic was never in the creation alone, it was what happened next when the oracle deck began to find its way into the hands of others. Seeing people use and weave these cards into their daily lives, creating their own sacred rituals, and becoming their own Oracle was the ultimate and true realisation of my dream. It was never just about the cards themselves - it was about helping others discover the love, wisdom, and power they hold within. The cards becoming a gateway to those using them to reconnect with their divinity. The most fulfilling part of this journey has been hearing from the amazing community that has grown around the deck. Receiving messages about how the cards have brought clarity, peace, and inspiration into daily lives fills my heart with so much joy. Watching groups come together, sharing their insights, and using the cards as a tool to connect with their intuition is exactly where the light and love were meant to go. As I mentioned earlier, my dream wasn’t just about creating something physical; it was about spreading light and love in a way that would ripple outward. To know that people are finding so much meaning in these cards, using them to navigate their own journeys and share their light with others was my deepest hope and always will be, that the oracle cards serve as a mirror, reflecting the sacred truth that each soul holds within them the ability to become their own Oracle. Empowering others to become their own Oracle, to trust their inner wisdom, and to let their light shine brightly in the world is simply a profound magical dream. Trust Your Inner Oracle — Your Dreams Are Waiting If you’re reading this, take it as a sign. A sign to pause, breathe, and listen, because your inner voice is calling. You are your own guide, your own Oracle. The wisdom you seek isn’t somewhere out there; it’s already within you, waiting to be rediscovered. Your dreams are not just possibilities; they are invitations from the Universe, asking you to bring them to life. It’s not just about hoping - it’s about believing, manifesting, and taking inspired action. Every step you take in alignment with your vision moves you closer to the life that is already yours in spirit. My second oracle deck is here, ready to go, ready to serve, ready to reach those who need its magic. This creation, channelled from a place of deep wisdom and love are not just a deck of cards, they are a guiding light for those seeking clarity, insight and to open their hearts to the next level of their self-mastery journey. As I stand at the threshold of bringing them into reality, I call upon the infinite abundance of the Universe to assist in manifesting their journey into print. May these cards find their way into the world and into the hands of those who need them the most, to bring illumination, joy and support to fulfil their purpose. To those who have ever doubted - don’t. To those who have ever felt lost - trust. I am living proof that when you hold onto your dreams and walk forward with faith, they will come true. The journey will shape you in ways you never imagined, but it is yours to embrace, to celebrate, to love. So go forward, beautiful souls. Follow your calling, honour your dreams, and never give up. The magic is in the process, the unfolding, the becoming. And when you look back, you’ll see, it was always leading you home. With love, light and heartfelt gratitude, Deb x

Firstly, I wanted to just share with you my personal take on what ORBS are: Orbs – what, how, why, where: Orbs I believe are manifestations of spiritual energy, balls of light and energy that indicate the presence of Spirit. They are often a sign that we are supported by the Spirit World around us. I believe orbs carry the presence of the angelic realm, fairies, nature spirits, spirit loved ones, and many other light beings, even animal energies too. These energies are revealing themselves quite regularly now in photographs but also many can see them with the naked eye too, along with other energies, not just through a lens or captured on photo images. Orbs can appear in different shapes and formations and have varying characteristics. They can vary showing patterns, ‘faces’, light rays, they can be different colours, sizes and when looking at their form, you may be able to ‘feel’ the different energy they bring too. In my experience, some orbs have been healing, some show what I believe to be light codes or high frequency vibrational insight and wisdom when I’ve meditated with them. Some look like ‘otherworldly beings’ or resemble ‘angelic form’ , others show such light, they have instantly uplifted my energy just by looking at them and some have brought an overwhelming feeling of unconditional love. Again, in my own experience, I have felt protection, guidance and comfort from orb visitations too. I have also found that orbs tend to appear in photos at times of celebration (weddings, parties, christenings and such) I believe this is when our energy is high and we are having fun, open to the wonderful present moment and spirit comes close to share these moments with us, letting us know we are never alone, when we are open and aware to this, we get to see, feel, and understand on a much bigger scale. Orbs and energy can be seen anywhere – sacred sites, nature, at home, public places, in fact I don’t believe this is limited. I also believe the more you are open to orb visitations and the presence of Great Spirit and its energy around you, the more you will see, feel and experience them appearing more frequently in your life. Like anything that is not ‘textbook’, this subject can be very controversial, and much is written about orbs and their meanings – my suggestion would be to take what you believe to be true and what resonates with you, leave the rest. If you are seeing orbs, you may feel, like myself, that you are in the presence of a spiritual or light being and a sign that you are receiving spiritual messages or guidance from higher dimensions. Orb meanings and manifestations can be vast so it’s up to us to be open to their interpretation. Personally, I found at the divine perfect time when I wanted to understand their frequent presence more, Diana Cooper’s book ‘Ascension Through Orbs and her Orb Oracle Cards were a great insight and helped me to understand more about their possibilities. Please, when working with Spirit be respectful – I always ask permission to take a photo when I start to feel the energy opening up – I also ask permission if I am allowed to share the photos, images as some may come specifically for you and your personal journey and I believe that some of their energy and great frequency light wants to be seen and shared so that more souls that are open to their incredible insight, blessings and understanding can learn about them. Discern for yourself. Here's my story so far with orbs, energy and Great Spirit…. From around 12 years old, I have my first memories of seeing orbs and energy. It mostly happened when I was in my bedroom just relaxing and chilling. It was at a similar time when I started collecting the Mind Body Spirit subscription, a fortnightly magazine – these came with freebies in each edition, which included oracle cards, runes, tree wisdom, crystal tumble stones and other things too. (I still have all these magazines and their binders to this day, some 36 years later lol). These memories and moments were the beginning of my spiritual journey and path, without me knowing at that point. I was simply fascinated by all the topics and loved reading and being with the energies as I sat on my bedroom floor with the different oracle card decks, crystals and other freebies all around me. I can remember so clearly how being immersed in their essence brought so much joy, magic, fun, imagination and creation to life for me. (I write more about this in the Guidebook that accompanies my first deck of Oracle Cards, this was the inspiration, motivation and where my dream of having my own deck came from all those years ago). I digress a little, but feel it’s important to share , as the visions of orbs and flashes of light I saw back then with my physical eyes, along with the spiritual tools and the energy from the magazine wisdom gave me the ‘knowing’ that I was never alone., I always felt protected, safe and looked after, I never questioned or, doubted it, but I never spoke about any of it with anyone until many, many years later… For most of my earlier years, being extremely shy, a people pleaser and someone that never liked being the centre of attention, lacking in self-love and self-worth, the ‘fear’ of being ridiculed, not being accepted, liked or being able to ‘fit in’ was a constant loud drowning out, so to share, talk about or speak up about angels, fairies, otherworldly beings and spirit energies was a big no go. I didn’t share my love of these incredible visitations, feelings, visions and the magic that they brought alive in me, I just always believed it was there and I was never alone. It was all locked away within. Fast forward through many life lessons, life changes, self-discovery and spiritual evolution (other blogs talk about some of this in more detail) I fully embrace and embody my true authentic path where I live, breathe and follow every day this soul journey and share my findings. Today more than ever, I see orbs and energy in different forms regularly both with my physical eyes as well as on camera. I feel so blessed and in gratitude every single time this happens. It transpires very easily when I’m in nature, being present in the moment, especially amongst the trees where I feel totally grounded, at home, connected with my heart fully open. It can also occur when I’m with clients or even just sitting having a cuppa with friends – I have come to realise Great Spirit is not restricted by time or space. In fact, the more I have been open to the experiences and encourage it, the more it materialises. I am sure many of you reading this have experienced visitation of Spirit in the form of orbs, light or the wonder of energy. If you have not, I really encourage you to be open to it if you wish. In recent years both travelling and during holidays, I have been blown away by some of the incredible visits and visions that Spirit has brought forward. For me, it happens in a way where I just ‘know’ deeply within that the energy is opening up, I feel the energy come forward before I see it – I wait and just allow the moment to begin to arise, at that point I also ask permission if I may take photos – practically 99% of the time, intuitively it is given and I begin to take photos of my surroundings and where I am being drawn to look. The energy that I feel is imprinted within photos that I take (it doesn’t always look the same as the orbs and energy I see with my eyes, it can appear slightly different on camera – colour, shape etc). It is truly magical and amazing. I fully embrace and become present in the space and time of what is occurring. When I was last in Rome I had quite an extraordinary experience with energy flooding in. Two experiences that stood out that I will never forget, include outside the Pantheon, where I saw energy in different forms to what I had experienced before. The other were the sights and feelings that unfolded in front of me near the Santa Maria church to the side of the Vittoriano. (Images over on facebook post accompanying this blog) On a visit to Arundel Castle, whilst in the grounds near the Rose Gardens, where it was quiet, away from others, I started to feel a portal of energy opening, as the sun shone down through the trees, there was a particular unusual branch of the tree that took my attention as I looked up. From that point, after waiting for a few minutes and asking permission, the energy came flooding in and it was a very magical, powerful and a heartfelt time. (one of the images of the day over on Facebook accompanying this blog) I wanted to share with you today a very special day that happened last year when I was sat in my lounge channelling meditations…the sun came flooding through the door behind me as I sat writing, the energy is the room started to change, I felt such warmth and the feeling of love just filled the room, almost like I was being held and embraced. I knew I was being visited by Great Spirit as the unconditional love that then filled the room was immense. At that point I asked permission to start to take photos and I have a series of images from the moments that followed. This particular image that I wanted to share with you was at that point you could barely see my face on the camera anymore through the light. Take a look what do you see, what do you feel? I strongly recommend you open your heart and awaken your soul to the possibilities that exist here. The second image (which is the same as the first only mirrored found over on facebook post accompanying this blog), I wish to at this point with much gratitude, a special mention to a wonderful and divinely gifted soul, John Railton, an energy photographer - Enchanted Art by John Railton, photography of angels, nature, portals and the dimensions around us. His knowledge and expertise have enabled me to see the entirety of the image and its magic – feel the love from the green heart. Just WOW! To finish beautiful ones, if this fascinates you and you would love to connect more with energy, Great Spirit and experience the wonder of other dimensions, my advice would be to have an open mind and a willingness to look and feel beyond the average. Get yourself out into nature and ask Spirit and the Light to come and visit you, then get your camera ready and be open to all possibilities. With so much Heart & Soul, Peace & Grace, Deb x NOTE : Photos I refer to can be found on my facebook post at Beautiful Life by Debra page via this link, as I can only add one image here on a blog. https://www.facebook.com/share/p/YBTCFU9piGr3YYg6/

As many of you know it was my dream to have my Haven built at home so I could do what I love and love what i do, not only to benefit myself but to offer that safe sacred sanctuary to others too x Well 7 years on and my purpose and the Haven dreams are continuing expanding and evolving in many ways x The community Haven is the forever destiny (see my blog titled 'The Haven') yet, I realise too so clearly that HAVEN DAYS is the grand 'Haven on Tour' which I am eternally grateful and excited to be birthing with the beautiful angelic hostess Cat Miles ...a truly amazing huge hearted friend and holistic partner....we are sooo busy preparing the line-up with our heart driven community to offer a fantastic day in Feb 2023 at the Pavilion Worthing overlooking the Sea....see other posts on my facebook page if you would like to come and feel like sunshine, it is definitely not to be missed. The main purpose of this post is to say thank you...thank you with love to each and everyone of you - you inspire me to keep the HAVEN alive (it is part of me) and I'm blown away by hearing so many of you have created your own 'Havens' and that mine has inspired you to bring to life your own. It's fantastic to hear there are Havens everywhere dedicated to your very own sacred sanctuaries where you can go to connect, rest, feel good, or just be x Your Haven may be part of you not even a physical place, an internal sanctuary don't forget x Incredible I wanted to share how important it can be in our lives to have 'haven' places, moments, times whether it be in your home, where you work, where you spend your time.. can be areas no matter how small or large that inspire you, that make you feel grounded, good, balanced, that bring together everything that you love....by doing this you create a space a 'haven' where you will want to be, where you want to spend time and this is such a blessed and powerful thing especially in how it makes you feel, how you wish to live and where you really truly want to spend your time (and shows you clearly where you do not). Share if you wish below in the comments your Haven dreams, goals, places, spaces, wish lists x There are so many Haven places in my home, in my life that continue to fill up my cup x Where do you have yours? x Love yourself enough to give yourself your HAVEN dreams and reality x CREATE YOUR HAVEN, CREATE YOUR MOST SACRED BEAUTIFUL LIFE Namaste So Be It x

I was asked for guidance and my opinion around the following subject... "How do you motivate yourself to do your work/studies/create when you set aside the time, but you do everything other than what you set out to do?" It interested me that I was asked for guidance which is why I felt strongly to share my response, because it is a topic that at times I have really struggled to manage. In my experience, and I am by no means an expert on any level, something to get to grips with...almost like a journey where you set out on a voyage of discovery... My findings have led me to believe and understand that Debra 'Procrastination' Parrott, as she had referred to herself, does best to surrender to the flow, let all control go when it comes to this. Of course I make action plans and have structured goals and guidelines for myself and my work, but I do not lose sleep over them anymore nor give myself such a hard time for not getting something done. This certainly was not always the case! Some days I would have an action list as long as my arm, and I would spend the best part of the day doing everything but cracking on with that action list. Other days I would get everything done and more...go figure. I used to get upset, frustrated or irritated with myself for "wasting" time doing "menial" things when I should/could have got so much more important things done! Now I view things differently.... I believe, and you may not agree, that procrastination is ego talking, the achilles heel that kicks in to hold us back from achieving our goals, delaying us or distracting us from reaching success. Some days its easy for it to get the better of us and other times you can recognise this and tell it to go do one to bring back focus and action and push through... "Procrastination makes easy things hard, hard things harder." - Mason Cooley. But this is where I found it got interesting... I found the hardest part was deciphering if I was procrastinating or if it was in fact the Universe playing its part of taking me away from the work/studies/action list because I was tired/overwhelmed/needed a breather/not in the right headspace so I would not of been getting it done to my highest ability at that time, so was taken away from it. I've come to believe that sometimes doing what we think is nothing or wasting time is actually giving us everything that we need ..e.g. I used to get the hump and agitated getting household jobs done trying to rush through so I could get on with my work or get creating new content, the more I tried to get the day to day chores and jobs out of the way, the more clumsy I got, the longer it took or the more jobs I ended up creating... in the end I never got my work or creations done anyway. I realise now I wasn't being grateful or aware of the blessing of grounding, which came in the form of hoovering, or the practical function of cleaning, or being present in the physical sense (as most of my work/purpose is in the spiritual sense so the grounding is very very essential). All the things my physical body was needing to bring in balance, so these 'distractions' 'chores' 'menial things' where actually helping me in the long run to complete my work/studies/creations. By no means have I completely cracked this but I seriously don't give myself such a hard time now when I don't complete my work/creations or action list when I set out too. I still procrastinate at times when I am starting something new, if I am taking a risk or I feel nervous about creating content which is a huge undertaking, and that's ok. I realise what is happening and I just go with the flow. We were put on this Earth for the experiences...got to feel the rush of blood through the veins at times to feel alive. I realise that actually I get the work done anyhow, even if not in the way I had planned, predicted or set out too, so its pointless giving myself such a hard time like initially I would. I believe our Higher Selves (the true authentic part of us that doesn't ever come from ego, judgement or restriction) is continuing intuitively guiding us so we end up doing exactly what is best or is meant for us but most of the time our human part fights it. In conclusion, I reckon its all in the deciphering... Is it procrastination and ego shouting loudly, taking you off your 'A game' and do you need to push through to achieve what you set out to do at this particular time... Or... is it the Universe guiding you away to do something else until you are actually in a better/healthier/calmer/more balanced place so that when you do get to it, the work, creation or ideas are the best they can be for your highest good... This beautiful ones, is for you to work out. I salute you and love you.

The time has arrived... Embrace Your Beautiful Life Oracle PRE-ORDER AVAILABLE... You can pre-order your set via my shop page on my website by clicking here.... https://www.beautifullife.co.uk/shop My first ever oracle deck has been a complete labour of love and 4 years in the making.... consisting of 33 cards and accompanying guidebook. Your set will be sent out to you as soon as I get them, around end of June/beginning of July 2022. Please note that your payment will be processed now. But you won’t actually get your oracle deck until end June/beginning of July 2022. Creating this deck has enabled me to fulfil a dream I have held since I was a teenage girl, and I am so very excited and thrilled to share them with the world. I truly hope that you enjoy their messages and insights. May the love, light and their essence evoke the magic within you to live your most beautiful life. With love always beautiful one Deb x

One eye bigger than the other...or bright big eyes... Thin wispy hair...or blonde bouncy locks... Old and wrinkled...or laughter lines with a sprinkle of wisdom..... Small and uneven lips...or a mouth ready to smile..... ********************************************* Whatever you see is your perception of me ... I can't change that and it is not for me to do that either... It feels as though it has taken a lifetime to figure this out....and on some levels it has been many lifetimes! I've found to date the journey has been about me coming back to me, through all the trials and tribulations... Miracles and magic can be created out of sadness and pain....and beauty can arise from living through ugliness.... The journey of SELF...self-love, self-acceptance...I'm ok with who I am inside and out...wasn't always the case...no way... What about yourself beautiful one? Of course, we don't always get it right (still the case for me...WIP...Work In Progress)) but as long as we are living authentic and true to ourselves, embodying all that we are then we on the right divine path x Why not begin to learn and live with all that you are...the alchemy of transformation is a huge gift...so much beauty and joy can come from life's disappointments, perceived embarrassments and shames... I am living proof of that x Love you, love me, just LOVE whichever which way you can x

I always felt from a young age that there was more than what we could see in this world. I always felt that I was protected and looked after but never really spoke about my thoughts/feelings as I was a very quiet, shy girl and always thought in my early years that other peoples’ opinions were more important than mine – low self-worth, self-esteem for many years held me back in many areas of my life but mostly from my true life purpose but I understand now that my soul needed the lessons and I am grateful for the things I have experienced and learned along the way, that have brought me to right here and now. Constant thoughts and feelings in my earlier years were…If I ever spoke aloud that I believed in angels and other higher beings of light what would people say? What would they think of me? Would they think I was mad/sad/weird? They might not want to know me anymore or ridicule me. Well the angels and my guides clearly helped me so much during the past 12 years since moving from Kent (where I was brought up and always lived from age 2) until I resigned from my job in the Corporate world in London to have my beautiful son Jack and we moved to the West Sussex coast…over 12 years ago now, it was simply flown by..... At this point, circumstances and the more relaxed way of life (jumping off the rat race of commuting, long hours and day to day rushing and chaos) allowed me to listen more to my inner knowledge and guidance which led me to connect with new people and places which opened up so many opportunities and then the re-connecting inside of ME with everything that I had quietened down over so many years became IGNITED, which was a huge life turning point for me in every way, I was able to see, feel and sense so much more of the amazing spiritual world that I had felt existed from when I was a young girl. The past 12 years have introduced me to so many beautiful like-minded true light-shiners, empaths and psychics as well as the amazing benefits of Angelic Reiki, crystals, holistic living, herbals supplements and remedies, many other healing modalities including the use of meditation, sound therapy and how colour has a huge impact too in our lives and much much more, my life has transformed, shifted and expanded in such a beautiful way, and for which I am forever grateful. I started to use my intuitive and empathetic gifts on a daily basis more and more when I took the 'leap of faith' to become self-employed and open my 'Haven' full time. This allowed me to sense and get to know my guides, angels and spirit more, as well as receive messages too for others. Its like anything in life, the more you practice and use gifts, the more you get to experience or find easier as time goes on. I am aware of spirit, angels and higher beings around me every day and so much more during times of healing experiences with clients, during meditations, out in nature, and when living in the present from my 'Higher Self' essence. We are all unique so will see, feel, understand and receive different experiences so you may be aware of the angels, guides and higher beings of light in a completely different way to me or other people and that would be perfectly normal, but if you are open to these and trust your inner wisdom what is comfortable with you, then the connection will happen at the perfect time. All I know is that when the angels and my guides are present, there is an overwhelming warm, radiating feeling of love, peace and protection with me. A much higher power in place. Much of what we see and hear about angels comes from books, movies, TV and there is much debate about whether angels are real, what they do, what they look like etc. I can only write and speak of my experiences and from what I know. I do not personally see angels in the form of how they are depicted in artwork and paintings with wings and halos, up until now I see them in the way that works with me and how I have come to be aware of their presence, which is in the form of energy and moving swirls of colours and light as well as “orbs” and during meditations I can “see” and “feel” the energy of the guides and spirits differently too. (more information on this another time). I do believe that the pictures and paintings that have become so well known represent the pure amazing level of light they hold which we may only be able to comprehend as wings and halos, but that is what I feel is right. I believe that connecting and working with our angels is a true blessing and if your intention is always one of 100% love, light, and coming from integrity and you do not misuse their powers and gifts, you will always have beautiful and guided experiences with them. INTENTION IS EVERYTHING! And remember…we have to ask for their support, guidance and help, it is free will. They cannot only help us with healing, protection and inspiration but I believe they also open up lots of opportunities and experiences which helps on all levels, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Are you ready to ask for their help? And meet your angels and guides and discover ways of connecting and working with them? If the answer is YES, you may wish to come encounter Angelic Reiki whether it be a personal 1:1 or have an entire weekend with me in their presence. Your beliefs, views and opinions on this subject will be very personal and right for you and this is how it should be. If you do not agree with anything I have written, understand my experiences and do not wish to know more, then that is perfectly ok. I respect your choices. I continue to live in gratitude every single day living and loving what I do. My journey with my guides and angels is continually evolving and growing and the more I flow with it, the more I am shown and feel. Part of my purpose and journey is to assist others in 'opening the door' to meet their own guides and angels, so If I can help or assist you in any way, please free feel to reach out to me. Angel love, peace and light to you beautiful ones, now and always Deb x